Life

Sometimes you react and sometimes you are acted upon. Things happen that we have no control over yet they influence a good portion of how we see ourselves. Take for instance what happened to me yesterday. A friend of mine was not online and I couldn't catch her on email or a messenger service. So I give her a call and see what's up. She's sleeping and I get my head bit off for waking her up, like I'm fucking psychic that I know she's sleeping and not to call her....

Of course I felt bad, who wouldn't. But again it's something I had no way of knowing yet I blame myself for the situation. Life goes on and I see myself as a bad person in some ways and beat myself up for waking her up from a peaceful well earned rest after a hard day's work.

All we can do in these situations is apologize for it yet try to make the person realize you had no control over what happened and it wasn't really your fault.

C'est la vie. Life goes on whether we want it to or not and we make the best of what we have given to us.